Dyes and Dying

So. Today was ok. Tomorrow i have my first exam, English. It's gonna be insane cause we have to write like two essays and I have to read a chunk of the book. But other than that my day has been alright. I had karate, and I am real sore from it. We did like 100 pushups and a bunch of other things that I can't even spell or remember. Right now, I am talking to my boy friend, and it's our one month in a few days YAY! I'm all excited cause even though we have never met, I love him to death and I would do anything for him. He makes life just that much easier. I'm pretty sure I would die if i lost him to mitchell, which will never happen. This friday I am going to get my hair done, and I am going to ask Brenda to bleach parts so it loooks cool. Brandon has come a long way since I met him. At first, he was depressed, and suicidal, and now, on even the worst of days, he's always at least a little glad to see me, and will always tell me what is wrong. He is so cute, even though he won't admit it because he has a bit of a bad concept of self. But he has excellent taste in clothing, so he's cool. I love everything about him, from his head to his toes. I can't believe it's only been a few weeks. It seems like it has been years. I can't wait to meet him. He is so nice, and he says he is fat, but he's like 10lbs overweight. I am all excited cause I get to meet him friday. It's my exam present. lol anyways. I should be off.
ATB,

Ron

Breakups and Happy Endings

So. they say a break up doesn't lead to a happy ending. Well for me, it did. I now have a boyfriend, who is the most amazing gorgeous boy i have ever met, I lost the loser boyfriend, who wasn't amazing, and he is now lonely, without a boy toy to fuck with. Excuse the language. I also met my warrior princess today. She is cool people. Her name is Xena. It makes me laugh. Then there is my movie night tomorrow. I will be watching scary movies with brandon (i hope he likes to cuddle :D) and emiley and kirsten. It will be a grand time. I wish brandon could stay over so we could fall asleep in eachothers arms. It's just so perfect when that happens. I hope he gets scared as much as I do, so i don't look rediculous, and if he gets scared more than i do, he can hide agaisnt me. it will be picture perfect. Tomorrow is formal day at school. I am going to wear a suit like all the other guys and i will hopefully not have mitchell checking me out cause that is just damn creepy. I am tired, and the room is clean so Imma talk to brandon somemore, hopefully see him strech some more cause he is so cute when he does that, and then go to bed and sleep and dream of french and science and english and stuff. I can't wait to hand in my novel study it will be grand. Night all.
ATB
Ron

Hate and Phonecalls

So, I haven't posted in forever. I am at home, where I live, and it is boring. I am on the phone lots now with my new boyfriend, Brandon. He is cute and super amazing and he forces me to write on my blog so he can read about himself. But he's cute and i love him. He amuses me alot and everything. In freddie, i saw 22 cute boys, but none of them were as cute a Brandon. Things with mitchell are prettty much over now and I am not supposed to talk about him, which is fine, but hard since brandon is mitchell's ex. But I get on. It is hard to talk on the phone and type at the same time. I keep falling alseep on people, and it's kinda sad, but, I enjoy sleep. I love him. He makes me smile and laugh. He is super cute. I know i said that twice, but i love him. I added the hunks app on facebook, and there are a lot of cute boys. I like talking on the phone it is good amusment. So my sister moved in with us for a while, mom kicked out her bf, and I got a bf, and my other sister and her bf are on the outs. I need to drop off the delivery for the volunteer agency about a month late....oh well i'll make a 100$ donation with it and they will like it. I also need to put some money in my library card cause i owe them about 100$ and yeah it's sad. I wish Brandon didn't cut himself it worries me alot. I am worried for him cause i don't like it when he gets hurt and yeah..... it's depressing. I can't wait to meet him. he says he will be like antisocial but i doubt it cause i am that outgoing. I love him alot and I hope he likes me as much in person as he does over the internet. He is really cute. I just hope that he would stop hurting himself.... I know there is nothing can do about it but it worries me alot as you can tell. I love him that much.
ATB,
Ron

Prostitutes and foam

So, today was day two of freddie. i am enjoying myself here. the place is snowy and we didn't get up to much. I slept till 4 pm cause we were up till 3 am talking. lol I had a shower, did my legs and then I starred in a movie for someones project. Can't remember his name, just that he was piss drunk. I laughed alot it was good fun. Then after that me and ang made pizza which was really good. Then we ate and her friends got pizza from this place and they complained becuase they didn't recieve all of the order that they paid for and so the guy from the place was really snotty and yeah. They had fun and so did i. Then i went online and talked to the cutest boy on earth. He is sooo sweet and nice to me it's unbelievable. He seems to think I am made out of glass or something and that he could break me. It's pretty impossible to break me. i'm alot tougher and stronger than I look. I do move things around by myself like my queen bed and couches and stuff. I should be off to bed soon. Cute boys msn is being a jerk and such. I hope he writes me an email he is sooooo unbelievably cute. I don't care if he is 10 lbs over weight, weight is easily dealt with. He is so nice too. He is perfect, and I don't know why he likes me soo much. I mean, I maybe be a good person, but I live a little far away and yeah. Mitchell is a douche bag and so is Zak. If they read this, i don't care. they can read this all they want. But they have to find it themselves lol. Well I must be off to bed.
ATB,
Ron

Boys suck...the rest blow

So. I am in freddie now. It was an excruciatingly long bus trip. I read one and three quarters books. Sh. I need something for the bus back. I saw two cute boys. One was french and really yummy, but straight, and the other kept touching my leg on the bus with his and yeah. I had to take a cab to get to the bus station in town cause i slept in. Then, when I get to the bus station there was no ticket for me so I had to call ang and yeah. She fixed things. So I got on the bus and it was empty all the way to moncton. Then when we switched, there was barely any room left. I was sitting with the leg guy and juice box girl. Both were cute and bilingual, but both from freddie. So I couldn't have dated leg guy anyways. Sides brandon loves me alot and I really love him alot too. He thinks I am going to dump him. I am not. I don't dump people for other people. If zak had functioning ears he would have heard that. Yeah. Enough boy hating. I still get the shakes sometimes especially when I hear zak's name or see his ugly mug. Yeah. I dislike that boy. Just a little. I am posting this on a mac and it is weird. I am just not used to the keyboard or the mouse. and the mag adapter. It is annoying. it pops off and yeah i just want to beat it. Yeah. So I am at scotts and the cats are making me sneeze I am going to be stuffed up all night ugh. yeah. i had a panzerroti for dinner. it was good. I don't know if i will get wireless at angelas, i hope so. Anyways that is it for now
ATB,
Ron

Pineapples and spelling

So, yesterday was good. I went to see Edie again. She is nice, told me that I don't need to worry about Mitchell because if he is so miserable to me, imagine how bad his life is. Misery likes company and all that. I can't wait for the concert tonight. I'm really excited about going. Yesterday I didn't get up to much. I went the mall, went to stephs, eat bullshit, pretended to trust people, you know the usual day. I can't wait to get on the bus tomorrow. It will be so exciting. i hope that we don't stop much. It will be fun. I have to get ready for the concert soon. I need to put some clothes in the wash and I will probably clean up the downstairs. In boy news, I talked to Brandon over the phone last night :D I was alll happy and everything and then I fell asleep on him and I feel really bad about it but therre is nothing I can do. LOL. He is so sweet and nice to me, I am raelyl glad I told him I would be his. It is something that i don't regret doing one little bit. I hope you all are havign a good day/night, and I hope that your relationships go well. Thats all for now.
ATB,
Ron

Coffee and Ventilation

Well, it's tuesday. Hooray! My monday was a long and stressful day. It started out good, I mean as good as getting an email from some random person telling you that your ex boyfriend is sorry can make it. Then, I apologized for all the hurtful things I said to anyone. I know I said alot of stuff to some people, and I felt bad for it, but it wasn't without reason that I said that. Like what did they expect me to do when I talk to them and they consider him over me, like I'm not going to be enthused, they knew that, but whatever it's the past. I can't wait for the concert tomorrow, well, the part where I hang out with the people I like. I hope brandon can come to the concert, that would be nice. I can't wait for it tonight. I am going to a friends house to watch musicals, and no, it's not the cute boys house lol. I am going to a female friends house. We are going to watch rent and whatever other musicals her mom wants to rent. It's really cold here in the mall, I think they have the ventilation set too high. In cute boy news, I now have a boyfriend. He is cute, 14 and a good person. He makes me smile alot, which is good. He also tells me I am beautiful no matter what, and I think that is really sweet of him. I love him alot, like it's not just random boy that's dating me, it's someone that I want to have a relationship with. Well, hopefully.
ATB,
Ron

Ruined nights, and bagging rabbits

So today was interesting. I think that word works. Well, you see alot of stuff happened today. From 2 am this morning till 1225pm i slept. Then i got up obviously, did the dishes, and all the while was logged on. Then I took a shower. Normal day right? Well not quite. Then after my shower i talked to Brandon, my boyfriend <3 whom I love very much. Then I told zak off this evening. I gave the bastard a peice of my mind and it was a nice large chunk. More like all of my mind, but ok. So then, things seem fine I feel great. Then I loose two of my closest friends because they think it's alright that I get beaten up. They like the person who wants to beat me up. Go figure. So I made a new msn account. No, you aren't getting it. Things are better now. I watched hairspray, it was decent. I'm not entirely fond of it. I prefer Phantom of the Opera or Rent. Those were good musicals. Hairspray was a little too blah for me. although it did make me laugh. I wonder when Brandon and I will be going on a date. I just want to stay home and cuddle, we know eachother well enough now. Maybe I can scrimp some money from my trip to Freddie and go to the movies to see idk. I've decided that no one is pretty unless they are looking their worst. Because that is when you can really tell how a person is, without makeup and primping. That is the part I love best about love. They love you and still think you are beautiful no matter how bad you look or how worn out you are. I would like to thank mitchell and zachary, for making my life better and introducing me to brandon. Thank's guys, you really helped me meet someone special. And that is what he is. My perfect someone. I think he is absolutley gorgeous, and that he deserves the world. And I will give it to him, one piece at a time if need be. Well i must be off
ATB,
Ron

Pendants and Weeks

So. I haven't posted in about a week. Well a school week. But whatever, it's not like there is someone reading this. I mean reading this and hoping that i will post again. So today is interesting. I have a cute boy now, that i really like, who makes me feel normal. and it feels good. Other cute boy said he is too far away and is probably involved with another boy right now. Zak and Mitchell are going to break up soon cause zak doesn't put out and it makes me estatic. Not that i want zak back. I just want him to feel even a fraction of what i felt from him breaking upi with me for sex. I don't know if i have to put a disclaimer on this site, but meh i don't care. They'll tell me if i do. Back to the cute boy news. so Brandon likes me and i like him. Sean doesn't like men so far. And chase is too far away. So if i was actually up to dating someone, I would be dating Brandon. But of course, my heart says hells no we ain't dating no one, and of course there are complications. Brandon, ex bf of mitchell, is apperently still mitchells property. So mitchell says he will beat ym face in if i end up dating him. It's a good thing I'm in karate. cause, you know, that would be highly inconvient to have him wanting to fight me with alll these new karate skills. Sides, there is always courtney around to help me and there is usually someone that will try to defend me if he jumps me. In school news, it's march break. As well, it's easter time soon. Can[t wait for the choco. Can't wait for the concert either. I think that is all, I am really tired.
ATB,
Ron

A poem

So here is another poem title would be Living With Myself
How do i live with myself?
How you ask?
How can I bear to be the person I am?
Simple
I breathe the oxygen around me
A reflex that you cannot stop
I walk from class to class
A nesscessity so I get to the top
I lay in bed at night
A need that I cannot quell
I love a person dearly
A sure way to go to hell
I hold someone's hands
A way to help of mine
I cry when I am sad
A thing that happens sometimes
I hand out happiness
A lunchlady in life's burning fire
I feel the claws at my heart
A burning pain so thick with desire
I laugh when I am happy
To make the sadness stay away
I sleep when I am tired
A way to pass the day
I hit the enter key
A piece of hard forever
I die a little inside
A heart torn by the stormy weather
As I tell you this
You look at me
Like I am some demon
When really the demon is no one
It is the actions that are the demons
They burn the ropes of relationships and hearts
Like an acid so strong you want to die
You want to cry all night long
When you fall into here
This place we call
Heartbreak
Valley
Home
To me
And the actions
Of my past that you
See as demons and horrors
That burn in my life like pyres
Getting rid of the old
So I can love again
Love someone
Maybe it's
You